You're a Light in My Darkness
You're Part of My Soul
A Heart No Longer Beating
You're My Angel Nichole My Darlin' Daughter
Who I'll Never Know
Eleven Years Gone By
I Still Miss You So
I Hear You Laughing
I Can Feel Your Kiss
I Know You're Watching
There's Nothing You Miss
When I Am Crying
I Can Taste Your Tears
You Listen To The Feelings
No-One Else Hears
A Candle Is Lit
A Tear Wiped Away
I Still Think About You
Each Night and Each Day
I Never Will Know
Of God's Reason Why
But Inside You'll Be With Me
I Can't Say Good-Bye

"You're a Special Little Spirit," the all great Master said,
As he gently caressed the beautiful red hair of the Little Spirit's head
"You need to go to Earth to spend some time, you know,
A place I send most Spirits to be tested, to learn, and grow."

The Little Spirit, in sadness, slowly bowed her head,
And from her eye a tear did steal and down her cheek it shed.
"Don't you fret now little one, I won't let you stay too long,
I'll bring you back to help me here, You'll hardly know that you've been gone.

You're my choicest Little Spirit, you're the apple of my eye."
And he wiped the tear and gently kissed His Little Spirit good-bye.
"I'm back," the Little Spirit whispered, as she climbed onto her Master's knee,
And the Master said, "I told you, you would not be long away from me."

And then, the Lord, He noticed still another tear welled in her eye.
"Why are you so sad, Little Spirit, whatever should make you cry?"
"I'm glad I'm back," the Little Spirit said, "but Master you must surely know,
When Your Angel came to get me, I did not want to go.

I know You said You needed me, and that I'd be gone the shortest while,
But Lord, couldn't I have had a little longer earthly trial?"
The Master let the Little Spirit slip down from off His knee,
He firmly took the little hand and said, "Come walk with Me."

The Little Spirit and the Lord slowly walked hand in hand,
As the Master explained her special part in the great and marvelous plan.
"Now, Lord, I don't mean to argue, I understand that you needed me home.
But I left in such a hurry, I left everyone hurting and so alone.

I didn't let my earthly parents know how much I loved them so.
I was too small to tell them Lord, how will they ever know?
They feel they've been cheated, and in a way, so do I.
Not getting to share any more than we did, how can I ever tell them why?"

"Little Spirit, I know your heart is heavy with this message you need to share.
But you need not worry anymore, I'll watch over your loved ones there.
I'll send them loving comfort as a strong and helping hand.
I'll contend and give peace to their aching hearts, so they will understand."

The Little Spirit looked up at her Master and said
"Thank You for explaining it to me.
And could you please tell them that I'm safe and happy, and that someday
They'll be here with me?"

"Yes," said the Lord with a smile and a nod, I'll tell them all that I can."
Then the others came to see the Little Spirit, as the Lord let go of her hand.
He said, "I'll tell them that you're pure, as pure as Heaven's Gold,
That I needed the warmth of your perfect soul to keep Heaven from getting cold"

In October
When your birthday comes
When I am saddened
To think you are already gone
I will remember
The sweet sound of your first cry

In October
When I am over come with fear
When I become afraid to open my eyes
And face the day of your birth without you
I will remember
What it felt like to be your mother
Even if only for a little while

In October
When I feel the tears come
When I hide them and fight for a fake smile
So no one will know how very badly it hurts
I will remember
You, for who you were

In October
When I weep for you
When I think of how little time
You and I had to get to know one another
I will remember
That, for that little while, you were mine and I was yours

In October
When it becomes too much
When holding my head up is impossible
Because there are too many memories and too little time
I will remember
That you are happy and one day I will get the chance
to make up for all our lost time.

In October
I hope you have a birthday that
Brings you smiles and so much more, baby girl.
Even though I won't be there I will be thinking of you
the whole time. It may hurt and I may cry but I
promise that this hurt will never compare to the love
and joy I felt the day you were born. I just can't
believe that a whole year has gone by since that day.
What is even harder to believe is that you are already
gone by. I know that we would have planned you a
spectacular party, if only we had gotten the chance.
Happy birthday my daughter.
Mommy still remembers and always will.

Love always and Forever
Mommy

I went to English tired,
and tried to stay awake.
The teacher kept tapping my desk,
he wouldn't give me a break.

I wrapped my arms around my Algebra book,
and tenderly thought,
about the Mother's Day Gift I had found,
the one that I hadn't yet bought.

I made my way to the cafeteria,
and sat by Nicole.
She never use to talk to me,
but with the politics of high school --
who knows.

I saw a kid named Joey,
walk in with a crowd.
I watched him pull his rifle,
and a few students hit the ground.

There were screams of terror,
and I could hear a few people pray.
I just looked at him for a second,
and not a word did I say.

He held the gun up to my head,
looking down at me he said,
"You're a Christian, right?"
I nodded. Bang. I was dead.

I went to my funeral today,
to see everyone one last time.
My mother couldn't stop weeping,
and they kept talking about the crime.

I just couldn't understand,
why we all had to die.
I couldn't find a reason,
but when I saw Joey,
I asked and he said, "Neither do I."

No one understands what it's like,
to hold that little one in your arms.
And know, deep down, beneath it all -
they might be early,
but they're God's greatest Charm.

I know you arived early,
but you are everything I'd hoped you would be.
And I love you,
little one,
with all my heart.
It's just you and me.

Against the world,
we can fight.
I will hold your hand,
and you will remind me how to laugh at the simple things in life.
Like breathing on my own,
being able to cry when I want someone to hold me.
Being able to go home with my parents.

I love you,
little one,
more then I could ever say.
And although you're very early,
I'm glad you decided to stay.